excess

I am so full… I cannot keep going, I just can’t; but I still persist. I think of all those eager, smiling, drooling, dripping faces, sitting down at their computers waiting for the new Giuliana Gorgonzola Mukbang to drop, waiting to see me stuff my face with more shit than they’ll ever eat in their miserable pig-shit lives. I have started filming videos sitting naked on a pile of cash, because it gets a lot more views that way. Last month I experimented with eating live animals, thinking that maybe if I spilled a little blood I might get a strong enough reaction out of people to start a real controversy; as everyone knows that controversy is the only way to get big out in this jungle of a website; but everyone called me a Dr Beast clone, and I gave it up after 3 videos. I still don’t know what to do with that rabbit carcass… I couldn’t stomach to finish it off. Occasionally I ask myself: why did I start this? Why did I begin to eat so much, to consume without end? I think it might have been the sheer number of things I was seeing. It was a sort of way to cope, with all of the gratuitous consumption that I kept seeing, day in and day out. Who knows, maybe it was just my corner of the internet, maybe it was always meant to be. But regardless, I can’t get out of it now. This afternoon, my plan is just to wait for my shipment of 1000 prawns to arrive; then I’ll deep fry them all, strip naked, and get out the camera.

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