I sometimes feel like I can still hear TikTok when I shut my eyes to go to sleep. I have been scrolling, scrolling for ever and ever for days. They say it will kill me, my doctors and my friends, but I just can’t help it. I can’t bring myself away from the screen. Sometimes I get the feeling like there is just too much, like I am being force-fed content through a tube directly into my eyeballs and I can’t turn away… but most days I just don’t want to turn away; I mean, why would I? The internet has everything I need. When I need to buy things I can shop, when I need to talk to other humans I can DM them, when I get hungry I can satiate it by watching videos of chefs preparing michelin-star food while I eat my instant ramen. My mom says to me that there is plenty more to life than just the digital; but she would never understand. She sees me as her perfect little angel still, she does not see that I have been corrupted. Now, I am a lowly internet rat, stuck on my wheel day after day with no end in site. Just let me die this way, it is what I deserve.
—@chain_smoking_lab_rat